I'm forgiven where I fell.

I am just thinking today of how great God's love is for me that he forgives me in the exact spot that I fell. Lately I have been really working through some issues in my life that I want God to help me resolve. Some of these are my mouth, my weight problem, my sensitivity level, and my complaining spirit. I want to develop an attitude of gratitude but so far I am just really trying to stop the grumbling. I am always so put out with my life even though I live in the richest county in the nation and have a lot of modern conveniences and always have everything I need for life. I am such a spoiled brat sometimes.

I was just reading this article in O magazine about a lady named Christine McFadden from Merced California. She is a vetrinarian and her ex husband came into her house on March 26, 2002 and shot all 4 of her children, one in which they shared. I was appalled at this story and how Satan can get into people's minds and distort their thinking as well as the pervasive problem of Mental Illness. This man was clearly ill and really made a horrible decision. After shooting all 4 children, he turned the gun onto himself and comitted suicide. I thought this was a horrible story and my attitude of gratitude was on my mind. I am so lucky to have all of my family members well and good, great friends who are supportive, and a beautiful boyfriend who loves me so much. This woman can still find peace in this world and that alone is amazing.

Today my goals are huge so I can't stay on long but I would appreciate prayers for me to work on things that God wants me to clean up. Also, please pray for a friend of mine (unmentionable) who is going through a lot in her family and needs wisdom. Thanks everyone and have a great day!

--Erica--

It's May Already!

I can't believe it's already May. In just one year I will most likely be married to Anthony and that is big news for me. My summer is already going great as I did a deep cleaning of my room, started a scrapbook for my sister Hilliary, and have set up appointments with a new doctor and a podiatrist. I have a few friends getting married this summer so I have wedding gifts to buy and I think I am going to kick my scrapbooking into full swing this summer so I will be going to Tall Mouse (a craft store in Mission Viejo) quite often. Anthony and I went there this past weekend and it was amazing how much they had for scrapbooking.

On Tuesday of this week Anthony and I went to our home away from home, Disneyland. We were bummed because I didn't get off work until 6 meaning we got there at 7:00, in the park by 7:15 and it closed early at 8. We only got to ride pirates of the caribbean but if you know me, that is enough. I just love going there. We watched a bit of the parade as well and that is always entertaining to me no matter how many times I have seen it. This weekend we are heading out to look at some more apartments and we are going up to Los Angeles to see Anthony's aunt as well as going to Universal Studios Hollywood. It should be a fun weekend.

The newest plans for me today are to really work on one plan for the wedding and talk to Anthony about it tonight. I would like to continue working on it through the summer while I have time so that when we are officially ENGAGED, I can just put everything into action with my attendants. My girls are great and I am sure they will be more than happy to help me! I am much more concerned with preparing for the marriage than preparing for the wedding. I think sometimes people put too much into the ceremony and forget to put anything into the relationship.

Well, I should get to my day's tasks and start to think about what's next. I will be blogging much more through the summer so keep up on it. Have a great weekend!

--Erica--